Today I went to an ophthalmologist. Though not a computer geek, I am having that problem of forgetting to blink my eyes when looking at a computer. (Yeah believe me!! I’m not joking!!) That makes my eyes reddish. My eyes were blood red today. But surprisingly I’ve not been at my computer for past 2-3 days coz of my busy schedule! That left me baffled!! I had always thought that this poor computer had been giving my eyes all the trouble. (Yeah agreed. Not ALL). Now it seems that this computer had almost nothing to do with my eye problem.
I went to the doctor. And guess what he told me. He told that I’m thinking too much!! That’s giving my eyes all the trouble. Priiinngggg!!
That gave me another thing to think about.
Since this is not the first time I’m being told that I think too much, I think I must seriously think about how to stop thinking!!!
I had been told this last time by Dr. when I consulted him for a skin allergy. Being a homeo doctor, he took a complete psychological profile. That’s when he commented so.
The most dramatic one was by Mr.Ganesh Iyer when he was giving us counseling during the placement training. Ha ha ha. The incident was so funny and he said this with a red face!! And with some recent developments I think what he said is coming true… but I’m not ready to give up yet!! Ok leave that. I know you are not getting a word of what I’m saying.
Once when I was attending a Yoga Training Camp, our trainer asked us not think of monkeys or grapes just before the bedtime. And as you can guess, that was the only thing we did that night. We have been thinking of that incident even to this day, especially when we meet anyone from that camp. May be you should try this. Decide on something that you are not going to think about tonight. And try not to think about it.
Well. Getting back to what I was thinking. How to stop thinking when you want to? It is not that I decide on topics on which I have to think about. It just happens. Even when I am doing something I’ll have something to think about. It is not anything big. I’m not trying to solve any problem nor inventing new theories. I am not thinking about anything I really have to think about… like my career… future….or anything of that sort. But I realize that I’m thinking all the time. On things that might look very trivial to most people. My eyes get locked on small small things.
I’ve always heard this answer from many people all the time, especially from Jithin Mathew.
“What are you thinking about?”
“What were you doing?”
“What do you think about this?”
And from Meera
“I didn’t get that. What was that?”
So my question is how do you get to that blankness in thought? How do you stop thinking when you want to?
If there is anyone out there who knows how to stop thinking, please help me. Pleaseeeeeeeeeee… I beg you….. Please help me control my thoughts.
And obviously I don’t want to die.